ok so i didnt quit smoking

I am still smoking. I haven't been feeling well though.something is wrong with me. The past couple days ive had really bad pain in my stomach and lower back. I couldnt take it anymore so yesterday I made Greg take me to the doctor. I havent started my cycle since I started taking those fertility pills in september. I thought maybe im pregnant and something is wrong. I've taken 2 tests and they both came back negative. So I was thinking maybe it was another cyst but that wasnt adding up. After all of the tests yesterday, the doctors think i might have a really bad kidney infection or kidney stones. I have more tests to do on tuesday so I hope they can figure out whats wrong with me then.

today...

I quit smoking. I realized friday night when i spent over 6$ for a pack that it was time to quit. I hope this time it works. I am not going to take the chantix this time though. It made me crazy before.
I am still taking those pills. nothing has really changed with that.....
Friday was our 5 year anniversary. We went to see jackass 3d, went to portillos for dinner, then finished the night off at old time pottery. It was a good day.

its been almost a month

I dont know if it is working or not. i felt funny for a while there but i dont know how things are going. I am hopeful the pills work. I guess i should find out soon. its almost that time.

pill stuck in my throat.

OK so i know its been over a year since my last post but nobody really reads this anyway. I am going to start doing this more often as a way to keep track of things for myself.

Today i started my fertility pills.I am excited and ready for it to happen already. I've got one of the 3 pills stuck in my throat though. It's driving me nuts. So i'm sitting here at work gagging and coughing trying to get the stupid thing to go down. Yeah thats not working at all. I hope this stuff works.

I was late for work today.

So yeah today I was over a half hour late coming to work. It took me about two hours to get here. There was this crazy accident on 65. A tour bus hit the back of a semi then it went down into a ditch. It freaked me out. How many people where on the bus? Are they OK?

mindless rant

For the past year or so I have been thinking about having a baby A LOT. I went to the fertility doctor and everything. Well it just doesn't seem to be working out for me. The doctor was a total asshole. He sat there and told me I was too fat and he wouldn't help me until I lost weight. That's funny because I see people that are bigger than me who are having babies all the time. I've lost all of the weight that he told me to lose but I am not going back to see him any more. I am going to get a new doctor. So my whole point is I know there are people out there who are having the same problem I am. I've talk to quite a few of them in the past couple of months. I am sick of being asked "when are you going to have a baby?"! I am trying to make myself healthy so that way i can. I've done enough that I don't have to take medicine for being a diabetic any more. But its still not happening. So when you talk to me please don't ask me about babies. It's not really a subject I want to talk about anymore.